Friday, April 30, 2010

Come with me

I've known something was coming for a while now. For the last year or so I can remember telling Aaron that some kind of hardship is coming. It wasn't so much that life was too good, I just knew this wasn't my whole life. There was a big piece missing and everything was about to change. My mom could feel it too. We knew something was going to shift.

The sign outside of the pediatric unit at KSB.

Our intuitions were right on. God has prepared me over the last few months to brace myself for something big. I am ready to be Addysen's advocate, her voice, and take this on. So, come with me, as I will try to keep updating as long as I am able.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Hello again

Addysen was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes earlier this morning. Type 1 diabetes. This might have been the hardest day of my life. I can finally breathe though. For the past 48 hours I've felt like my head was being held under water. I knew she was sick, denying that it was anything serious for my own comfort... though knowing all along that God has this and whatever is going to happen will.

Last night I let Addy stay up extra late and while we were singing bedtime songs, I couldn't help but feeling that this was the last normal day of our lives. So, the first page of this new chapter has just been turned. My just-turned-three-two-days-ago daughter is an insulin dependant diabetic.

This is far from the end though, the start of a new journey. Hopefully, starting to blog again will reflect this new chapter, the chapter that will last a lifetime celebrating my sweet Addysen and my adventure, if you will, of this new aspect of our lives. Addy is so strong, I know she can do this. She yells at the nurses to get off of her!! And oh so smart. She just wants the sick to get out of her.

God's got this. I love Him and He loves us so much.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.