Addysen was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes earlier this morning. Type 1 diabetes. This might have been the hardest day of my life. I can finally breathe though. For the past 48 hours I've felt like my head was being held under water. I knew she was sick, denying that it was anything serious for my own comfort... though knowing all along that God has this and whatever is going to happen will.
Last night I let Addy stay up extra late and while we were singing bedtime songs, I couldn't help but feeling that this was the last normal day of our lives. So, the first page of this new chapter has just been turned. My just-turned-three-two-days-ago daughter is an insulin dependant diabetic.
This is far from the end though, the start of a new journey. Hopefully, starting to blog again will reflect this new chapter, the chapter that will last a lifetime celebrating my sweet Addysen and my adventure, if you will, of this new aspect of our lives. Addy is so strong, I know she can do this. She yells at the nurses to get off of her!! And oh so smart. She just wants the sick to get out of her.
God's got this. I love Him and He loves us so much.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Natalie, You are right, God is in complete control!! Although we don't understand exactly why He allows what He does, especially with our children who we feel we need to protect, we can fully trust in Him to get us through. Amazingly He loves them even more than we do!!As hard as this may be to hear,I know God has gifted you at going at things in a very head-first, all-in and very intelligent,kind of way, and I believe He will be using you and someday Addy, to reach other people for Him with this...this life is all for Him and we can use even our most difficult things, especially our most difficult things, to glorify Him. I love you guys so much. I'm praying and am here. Savannah
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